If you follow me on Facebook, you’ll probably know that my piece “Letting Go” was recently accepted to the spring juried show at the Utah County Art Gallery. If you’re in the Orem/Provo area of Utah, be sure to check out the show to see some fabulous work from some great local artists. The show will be up until June 28th.
This is actually a big step for me, because even though I don’t mind baring my soul and sharing my work on the internet, I’m actually very shy about it in real life. I’m pretty shy in general, especially in large groups. It doesn’t help that I wasn’t accepted into the larger juried show that I entered last spring. So walking into an art gallery hauling a 2 by 4 foot painting where everyone can see me and having people ask questions about it is pretty scary for me. I look around and see artists who are much more experienced than I am and have much more developed skills, or gallery directors who have seen thousands of pieces come in for shows and I just want to run home and hide in my studio.
Confidence has always been a huge issue for me, and it’s something I’m working on daily; my journal pages are filled with pep talks to myself and I’m constantly noticing little ways that I “hide” who I am-dressing more conservatively than I’d like, chickening out of entering art shows and other opportunities, not speaking up-and I take a step to “come out”. I entered my piece in a show. I bought a colorful sundress to wear on normal days. I’ll disagree with someone (nicely, of course).
Being myself on the internet and with my closest friends and family is great, but I need to be completely myself all the time, even if others think I’m weird for it or if they don’t like my art. They obviously aren’t the people I’m meant to reach, and that’s ok.
I’m allowing myself to be colorful and weird. I’m letting the world see my art, and not just in pictures on the internet (though I love sharing my work that way), and so far, people are responding to that.
I can’t wait to enter another show and get another colorful dress Have a lovely weekend everyone!